Despised....

Numbers 15:30-31

30 " 'But anyone who sins defiantly, whether native-born or alien, blasphemes the LORD, and that person must be cut off from his people. 31 Because he has despised the LORD's word and broken his commands, that person must surely be cut off; his guilt remains on him.' "

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I read this, this morning. This was kind of harsh...but good & much needed to remember. I don't think I think about sin being this big....well I didn't think about 'defiant sin' being this big of a deal...I guess. It says it "despises the Lords Word!"....despises is a hard word! I don't think when I am in a situation where I am 'choosing' to sin...I think about what I'm really doing...I'm despising Gods Word! WOW. That hit me harder than I thought I would.
Through this whole journey I never want to be a person who just deliberately despises Gods word & purposely break his commands. I realize this was under the law, and that we have grace now through Jesus...but this was a good reminder for me.
A reminder that when I'm faced with a sinful situation...what will I do. Will I give into my self & despise Gods word? Or will I move away from it?
What would you do?

Christmas Eve eve

So wow! its the day before Christmas Eve! I can't believe how fast time has flown by! Its official though, my laptop is fixed & so I hope to have a lot more blogging time! (yaay)
So Christmas Eve is my favorite day of the year! I think its because there is always a Christmas Eve service & then after a group of friends get togheter & just eat snackes & hang out...waiting for Santa! I just love the time time & the lights & just remember the reason...truly for the season; Jesus' birthday! I can get so caught up in the hussle & bustle and the commercialization of the holidays, but this year I've been constantly reminded of the real reason of why we celebrate. His birth is so important to why I believe what I believe & I get so bummed I forget that some times. I listened to this song by Relient K, and the words are amazing:

And with this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let You know how much You've touched my life
Because here is where You're finding me, in the exact same place as New Year's eve
And from a lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I want to be

And the first time
That You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever

And so this Christmas I'll compare the things I felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That You have come to meet me here

To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me
In the hope that what You did
That you were born so I might live
To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me

And I, I celebrate the day
That You were born to die
So I could one day pray for You to save my life

I just love these words, because at the end of each year, I don't want to be where I started. I want to have changed & moved & loved like Jesus loves....I hope that will be true.