Thursday, December 31, 2009

End of 2009

Well this year for sure has had its ups and downs. Around May there was no light at the end of my very long and dark tunnel. I questioned if God could even hear me and my cries for an answer on whether to have children or not.
Well he answered around October! And gave us an amazing new idea of how to have kids! It wasn't the plan I had designed in my head, and it wasn't Jeremy's plan, but a whole new plan, which started our adoption journey.

As I mentioned earlier, we were considering embryo adoption, but after some thinking I don't think we will go that route. Not to discount that route at all, we just don't feel that is the answer for us at this point. We feel like God has called us to adopt a baby that is already born, or being born, that normally would not have had a chance. Take them in & show them the love of Jesus in a practical way. So we are just sticking with regular adoption right now. We also do not feel that Bethany is going to be the agency we go through, for several reasons. But the most being there are other options out there that are better for us as a family.

As we enter this new year we got an application for Family Life Services, which is the Liberty Godparent Home, an adoption agency here in Lynchburg. They are seeming to be very affordable & we will begin pursuing this option. If this one doesn't work out we are trusting another door will somehow open.

The biggest goal this year of 2010 is that He becomes greater in our lives & we become smaller, how ever that looks. We are trusting & holding on the the thing He has called us to, and that is to love a life, like He loved us. I'm so excited to see how this all pans out!

Happy New Year everyone & God Bless!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Adoption Meeting

So we had our meeting with Bethany last night & well...lets just say...we are.....more confused & lost on what to do then ever. :)

We really have no clue what we are going to do......There are just a lot of things to think about...and not all the information on the Bethany website was accurate....so like it said they were on an income sliding scale for the pricing of adoption...but that changed & so now for everyone its a solid $25,000. And that does not included your lawyer fees...so when all is said & done it would be around $28,000to go through them...and we just don't know that, that is the best way to honor God with our finances [for us]...WHEN there are other options & other agencies that you can get a baby for $5,000....

So then there is the other option of doing embryo adoption...which I was totally closed to, but this meeting opened my eyes to that route...and I am more open to at least researching it some more...that would only be $8000 which is TOTALLY doable for us....do you know what that is? I'm not sure if you do....so I'm gonna tell you :)
Embryo Adoption is from the people who do invetro & then have all these left over fertilzed eggs & they are just frozen & you can adopt them...because if we truly believe life begins at conception...then there are 500,000 embryos needing a home to grown in (me) :) In most cases people come to adoption as a last resort because of infertility issues....so I probably would be able to carry an embryo no problem....only thing with that, is....they don't just put one in you....they do at least two...which means i could end up with twins...which is a whole new ball park! :)
SO
all that to say...there is a lot of thinking to do....and we have no clue what to do & are exploring all options....so yeah. Skies the limit for us! May we honor you, God in our journey!

Monday, December 14, 2009

"This is it...don't get scared now...."

The above quoted is from a movie....give up? Home Alone. I love that movie. Especially around Christmas its one of my favorites! But that line is even more suiting for what we are about to step into, tomorrow.
Our first meeting with Bethany Christian Services is tomorrow night at 6:30 in Charlottesville. I can't believe we made it to this date...its been a long two months. I'm ready, and nervous, and excited to see what the Lord has in store for this next phase of our journey. I'm not fully convinced though, that this is going to be the path he has for us. I'm not sure if it will be this agency we go through, a completely different one, or just a private word of mouth adoption. But either way we are open. We know that going into debt for this isn't an option though...so that shakes my faith a little. Its just so much money to out right pay, you know? But I know that God has this & is in control of what will happen, and knows how all the money will come together...even with my doubting faith. He is still in control, and boy am I glad I don't have to be!
So tomorrow, well maybe more like Wednesday, I'll give you the run down of how the meeting went!
So here is to our meeting! This is it....don't get scared now! Till next time!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Waiting game & travel

Well it's been a few weeks since I wrote & a few things have happened. First being we have had two slight adoption opportunities come up. The first being, a lady at our church told us that her coworkers niece is pregnant & might consider adoption. So we told her we were interested & if they did decide to give up he baby that we would be interested. So our name & numbers have been forwarded, and so we wait.

The second thing we heard of was a coworker of Jeremy asked how serious we were in the adoption process because she may have an opportunity for us. Her sister is in jail & was let out a week ago to have her baby & has to go back. Right now grandma & grandpa have baby, so his coworker was going to go home & try to see if they would consider adoption. And so we wait. We haven't heard anything on either situation, but are hopeful a situation will work out according to His plan.

The travel comes into the blog now; see currently I am blogging from 32,000 feet in the air from my iPod!! Technology never ceases to amaze me!! We went home for the past 9 days to Durango to visit with friends & family! We had an amazing time & were able to tell Jeremy's side of the family of our story! It was wonderful to get to tell them in person! They are thrilled to have another addition to our family, however that addition comes. It was also really cool for Jay (Jeremy's Dad) to really see the impact he had on this family! It really impacted him so much! So that is wonderful! We were also able to tell some of our friends, and again they were equally supportive!

It's been an amazing journey so far, but if I'm honest I find myself trying to rush to the end. Forgive me Lord, as I want to enjoy this process!

One last thing we still are going to the meeting at Bethany on December 15th so we'll see....and so the waiting game continues!
Until next time!

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