Well hello there!
If you have been following along with my blog for any amount of time you will know that, normally, I like to do a year in review blog post, but for 2016 we are just going to call it what it is, and it is over. Ha! Not that it was a bad year at all for me, it was a good year; a year full of transitions though….we moved my mom out to come live near us. She got moved in and settled into a new place. I started serving in women’s ministry at my church, and for the past few months I have been working with our Director of Women’s Bible Study on launching a new Women’s Bible Study group on Thursday nights! So we finished the year off prepping and planning for that. That will kick off on January 19th, and I am excited. Nervous, because I feel like a fish out of water not knowing what I am doing, or where we are going really, but I am being faithful with the doors God has opened up for me, and so here we GO!
There are also some new things God is birthing inside of me too, and I can’t wait to share with you what they are. BUT for now,if you are the praying kind, pray for me that God would continue to give me wisdom and knowledge, and that I would be faithful to continue to follow His lead.
God has been teaching me a lot about myself here lately. Like I explained it to my best friend, it’s left me in this place of feeling really vulnerable and exposed. Two feelings I would rather never feel!
Think of it in metaphor form like this…Over the past 5 years or so God has had me on the edge of different cliffs, standing, starring down below, and He has asked me to not only walk to the edge and look down, but to actually jump off! Each cliff has had different heights, some with jagged rocks below, and some with water. As He has had me standing on them looking over the edge, He showed me, these are opportunities to trust Him deeper. They are an opportunity to take the leap off the cliff, and allow Him to show me the ways in which He will catch me.
He has asked me to settle my heart in this place of being comfortable with the uncomfortable! “Being comfortable with uncomfortable” is not something that is fun or easy for me to do. I like a plan, I like structure, and I definitely do not like being exposed and vulnerable. BUT….these are the cliffs that God has asked me to stand on. Each cliff is the same too, in that; I have the option to jump or not to jump. Thankfully with each one, I have mustered up enough courage to jump, but He has had to teach me how to be brave. I have had to learn how to walk to edge and actually open my eyes to see the beauty around me. I didn’t always approach the edge with assurance and confidence. He also has had to teach me how to get back up on the next cliff He asks me to face. Being a girl that is terribly afraid of heights, you can see how problematic this whole situation is for me. :)
Through it all, with my eyes fixed on Him, it has been possible to face these fears. So for 2017 this is the pattern I will continue. I will continue to walk towards these cliffs that the Lord brings in my path, and prayerfully each time I will be able to jump quicker, and with more and more confidence. I’ve seen too much of my God not to trust Him now.
I’ll be in touch!! xo
