Loved Enough...

So you know that love word is tricky. There is so much to that word, yet it gets thrown around so easily. By me. By you. By everyone. I wish I understood the gravity of that word every time I used it. I don't think I'd use it as much if I did. But you know what is funny, is that, there is so much emotion behind it, and so many things to that tiny little word, that I don't even think i fully understand. I know that there are days where I don't feel it enough. I can be standing in a room full of people who truly do care about me and my well being. And as I stand there in that room, something inside me is screaming to be heard. Why do I feel so lonely sometimes? I feel like no one out there loves me. I mean I 'know' people 'love' me...but why doesn't it feel like it? Why can I be standing in a room with a ton of people and feel the lonliest I've felt in a really long time? Why can't I fully feel 'LOVED ENOUGH?" There are things I search for that, in my head, I justify by saying...if I only had that I'd be loved enough. Or if I was like them, or looked like them, then I'd feel loved enough. If I can just make it to that next level I'll finally feel loved enough. There is always that thing that I look to, to feel loved enough with. I just wonder if there is a time, a place of existence that allows you to feel loved completely? Is there a way to live that every second of everyday? How can you feel that feeling All the time. No doubt. No loneliness. Nothing but love and feeling loved.
I know my God loves me enough, but I just wonder how to feel that ALL the time. How do you create a place where you are loved enough all of the time? Is it possible?