Magical Mommy Kisses

So this week Ella started pulling up!! She was in her crib last night "going to bed" , and as we were watching her in the monitor, she was really crawling & playing around. All of a sudden, she found the top of the crib & started to pull UP!!! As we were watching this I was yelling to Jeremy to run & get up there in case she really did pull herself up! Just as he was getting to the room she started to pull up again, but didn’t make it because Jeremy got there in time. So needless to say...we need to lower her crib! :)

The pulling up started on Monday; Ella was on the kitchen floor & she grabbed the bottom stair & managed to pull herself up to a standing position! She stood there for a little bit & then fell straight back without bending!!! HAHAHAH poor baby. She cried a lot. :( Of course we went & comforted her, and like any parent trying to help their child learn & grow would do, we had her do it again. This time she stood & did not fall. We were very proud of our girl for doing it again with no tears! :)

I was telling my friend Wade this today, and this was his reply, "Yay Ella! Now you get to give magical mommy kisses that make everything better every time they fall and get hurt." :) :)

My heart did a little leap….I guess I didn’t realize that I am the one who will be that for her. Yes there is Daddy, who brings a different level of strength & security to a little girl…but there is nothing like your Momma, you know? So I just kind of had an “ah-ha” moment….I get to be the one who brings “magical Mommy kisses” to my sweet baby girl. wow. how cool is that!!
I could not feel more honored. What a blessing. I am so filled.
Thank you Lord for this amazingly sweet gift. <3

1st Mothers Day

So the past 3-4 years this has been such a painful day for me....just an in your face reminder that I was not a Mother & was no where close.
I look at where my life has come & the journey it took to get to this day, the first time ever getting to participate in this day as a Mom, and I can't help but look back in awe.
I just remember the pain of wanting something so bad, and not seeing any hope in sight. Having to allow God to take me on this painful journey so I would keep Him in his rightful place. It is not my "right" to have a baby. It's not something He "owes" me either....it doesn't even define who I am....I am a follower of Christ & He defines me & chooses to bless me....and that is what I'm taking from his Mothers Day.
Ella is a constant reminder that my God is faithful, He hear my cries & longings for a baby. He brought me to the end of myself & what I thought I was entitled to & then & only then did he pour out this great gift.
I feel so loved by Him & am in awe of how He constantly reminds me that He loves me & is proud of me.
It's been an amazing day & I'm so filled! <3

Jeremy was so sweet & did an amazing jib celebrating me today too. He for me a bunch of "1st" gifts...and the grand finale was a pair of diamond ear rings!!! WOW!!
He took me to my favorite restaurant for lunch, let me nap, we got Starbucks & are finishing the night with my favorite show....it's been amazing!
I love my God, my husband, and my sweet sweet baby girl Ella.

Happy Mothers Day to my Mom too, you mean more to me than you will ever know! And Happy Mothers Day to my Mother in Law, Tawna....could not have a better Mom #2! thank you for who you are!! Love you guys so much!! <3

Update

It's amazing what one week will bring!
Sunday May 1, 2011 Ella crawled for the very first time & she's been cruising ever since! It's so fun to watch her grow & change!! She changes at such a rapid pace, it's like I don't want to look away from her or I'll miss something.
She is an amazing gift & I'm so thankful to God for being so sweet to me & giving me the desire of my heart. To be a Mother! She blesses us daily!
So thankful!