So the past 3-4 years this has been such a painful day for me....just an in your face reminder that I was not a Mother & was no where close.
I look at where my life has come & the journey it took to get to this day, the first time ever getting to participate in this day as a Mom, and I can't help but look back in awe.
I just remember the pain of wanting something so bad, and not seeing any hope in sight. Having to allow God to take me on this painful journey so I would keep Him in his rightful place. It is not my "right" to have a baby. It's not something He "owes" me either....it doesn't even define who I am....I am a follower of Christ & He defines me & chooses to bless me....and that is what I'm taking from his Mothers Day.
Ella is a constant reminder that my God is faithful, He hear my cries & longings for a baby. He brought me to the end of myself & what I thought I was entitled to & then & only then did he pour out this great gift.
I feel so loved by Him & am in awe of how He constantly reminds me that He loves me & is proud of me.
It's been an amazing day & I'm so filled! <3
Jeremy was so sweet & did an amazing jib celebrating me today too. He for me a bunch of "1st" gifts...and the grand finale was a pair of diamond ear rings!!! WOW!!
He took me to my favorite restaurant for lunch, let me nap, we got Starbucks & are finishing the night with my favorite show....it's been amazing!
I love my God, my husband, and my sweet sweet baby girl Ella.
Happy Mothers Day to my Mom too, you mean more to me than you will ever know! And Happy Mothers Day to my Mother in Law, Tawna....could not have a better Mom #2! thank you for who you are!! Love you guys so much!! <3
2 comments:
Glad you had a good 1st Mother's Day! Isn't it fun being pampered? ;)
for sure! :)
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