Wholly Surrendered

Wholly surrendered is a phrase I heard in a song....by Jeremy Riddle. The lyrics actually changed my life....completely.
Let me share them with you:

Jeremy Riddle - Sweetly Broken
To the cross I look, to the cross I cling
Of its suffering I do drink
Of its work I do sing

For on it my Savior both bruised and crushed
Showed that God is love
And God is just

Chorus:
At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered

What a priceless gift, undeserved life
Have I been given
Through Christ crucified

You’ve called me out of death
You’ve called me into life
And I was under Your wrath
Now through the cross I’m reconciled

Chorus:

In awe of the cross I must confess
How wondrous Your redeeming love and
How great is Your faithfulness

I wouldn't say I have always been here....in this 'sweetly broken' state. Nor have I ever imagined I'd be content in a 'sweetly broken' state.....I mean really...when you think of 'sweetly broken'??? it just doesn't make sense, you know? I know in my own life, when something is 'broken' its not usable, it broke, you don't want it...and there is surly nothing 'sweet' about it.
This song has grown to be a lesson I've been learning for the past 2 years. A life change I've tried to live. A new way to do this thing, to remain in a state of brokenness, and becoming wholly surrendered, is not an easy thing. And I'm not saying I've arrived, because Lord knows, this life is still as rough as the rock needing to be chipped away!
But to the cross I look, and to the cross I cling has been aim. The Lord has brought me to my knees these last two years, in what has seemed like every area of this little life I lead. I have been shook to the core, wounds have been torn wide open, a paradiam has shifted, once what I thought was gain, really is now a loss, a heart has been crushed, friends have come and gone, loss of family, a heart changing from the inside out, values being challenged, faith tested, loyalty tested, one thing after another tested and broken.
As I look back, I realize, I was being drawn to my knees, which left me at a loss for words, and so lost in love, sweetly broken, and wholly surrendered.
To truly understand those words, to drink them in, and let them pour into your heart and soul, to hang on every word as if it were straight from your heart, and to grasp the true meaning of them, one could not relate if having not been there, and gone through it, or is going through it.
That is where I feel like I am at right now, and have been for quite some time. I feel like its been a place of brokenness, surrender, dying to self, renewing, refreshing, challenging, hurting......loosing it all for the sake of Christ.

So why this blog? Why post these things? Well for an outlet, I'd say. And for some ounce of hope that my musings and daily struggles and life written down, would be used to encourage or push some one toward the light. And may your life become one that is sweetly broken and wholly surrendered.
Until the next time.....