Let freedom ring....

Those words have never rang more true to my heart than today. I've heard those words over and over and then over again, and they never really meant anything to me. Isn't it funny how words, peoples words, and peoples stories that you hear don't really ring true to your heart or hit that connection point with you, until you actually go through it yourself?
I took a step toward freedom today. Let me back up...I'm on this journey of pursuing Christ & trying to figure out what that even looks like. Last night he brought me to a conversation that was pretty hard to hear actually. It was one of calling me out of myself, and those are never fun! However, it revealed to me my need for acceptance and validation from people, from humans. I exist in this yearning, this longing, this constant state of hanging on words people say to me. I become what they think of me. Their opinion mattes most. Their responses to me can have me floored for days, wondering why they didn't call me back. Its this unhealthy need to be thought of, or considered the best. It strokes my ego. It validates me. It makes me who I am.
or does it.
See, I'm learning that in all of this, this life, this journey; its not about me. Its not about what people think of me. Its not about what they say about me, its not even about if they like me. (that one's hard to swallow.)
Its about a relationship between the Creator, and the Created. Its about hanging on every word, thought, emotion, feeling felt from and by Him. its considering His opinion ABOVE anyone Else's. Its caring about his opinion above anyone Else's. And its learning what His opinion is! See, I'm also seeing that...in order to feel validation from someone they have to know you. And you know them. if not, the level to which the words strike a cord in you has a drastic difference. And if I'm to find my validation, my self worth, my ego strokes in him, I have to know who He is & I have to let him know me. I have to let go, jump in, trust him & then Let Freedom Ring!