Acceptance

I will put my trust in Him.
-Hebrews 2:13

Helen Roseveare was a British medical missionary in the Congo years ago during an uprising. Her faith was strong & her trust was confident, yet she was raped & assaulted & treated brutally. Commenting later, she said, "I must ask myself a question as if it came directly from the Lord. 'Can you thank Me for trusting you with this experience even if I never tell you why?'"
What a profound thought. God has trusted each of us with our own set of unfair circumstances and unexplained experiences to deal with. Can we still trust Him even if He never tells us why?
The secret to responsible trust is acceptance.
Acceptance is taking from God's hand absolutely anything He gives, looking into His face in trust & thanksgiving, knowing that the confinement of the hedge we're in is good & for His Glory.

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that was from a devotional book someone had me read.
Asking myself if I can thank Him for this experience even if I never hear why.......

A year ago....

Well July 21st, tomorrow will be a year of solid, 5:00a.m. alarms, work outs at 5:30, five days a week, sometimes six, sometimes four, and 6 months of eating correctly.
See over the past 5 years the Lord has been taking me on this journey of giving him ALL of me....all of me included my weight. I have always been over weight....in 2nd grade I remember being on a diet if that tells you anything. The Lord convicted me one year at a Leadership conference at BRCC and we were talking about giving God all of us....I told him, sure Lord anything, you know I would go where you wanted, you know I would do what you ask, just say it & I'm there. His response to me was...give me ALL of you; including your weight.
*WACK*
Um what??? I asked. He said all of you, give me all of you. I was like Lord, I don't know how to give you ALL of me....I don't know what that looks like, I don't even know where to begin.....thus started my journey. Its been a long road, not with out bumps & bruises along the way. Its been one that has formed who I am right now though. I know now that I do NOT have to live the way I have for the 1st 29 years of my life. I know now that I do not have to be a slave to myself. I know now that I am in control of whether I get diabetes or not. I know now that weight & losing weight is not about the number on the scale, but if you can say, Yes God, I honored you with my body today!
Some verses that have helped me along on this journey are:

2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation, the old has gone, and the new has come."

Genesis 4:7 "If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? but if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must MASTER it."

1 Corinthians 9:27 "...No I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize."

....and many many others keep me going. Changing that tape loop in my head that tells me I'm not worth it, to I AM WORTH IT! I AM. I am allowed to live a healthy life for Christ, I do NOT, WILL NOT, be a slave to my self any longer.

So for now, for me, this is what I have to do, waking up at 5 am, going to work out, monitor what I eat, and praying that I do not give into self is where he has me now. I have lost 35lbs since this journey began, and I have 20 more to go. As God is my strength I WILL met my Goal.

Thank you Lord, for the work in this life, may you be lifted high! May my life, physical, spiritual, and mental be a testimony to where you have brought me. All for you Lord, yesterday, today & forever.
I love you.