I run for you.

Well we got back from Atlanta on Sunday & I can honestly say Ella traveled excellent! We left last Tuesday night at 9pm, we drove 1/2 way to Charlotte & Ella slept the whole way! It worked out great!
Then Wednesday morning we headed out to Atlanta, it was good we just took our time & stopped at some outlets, had lunch, and when it was Ella's nap time again we finished the drive. She did great!
Then two days at a conference she really surprised us! She slept when the speakers where speaking & she was up, eating when we were having breaks. Could not have planned it better! Friday afternoon she started to get a little restless & did not want to go back into the dark room. They have the lights super low & by Friday afternoon she just did not want to go back in there so Jeremy & I took turns on the last two sessions. But all in all it was a great trip.

As always learned so much! One of the things that stuck out to me the most was giving honor to our leaders/those over us. The Lord has been dealing a lot with my heart & the issue of pride I carry around. Especially with Jeremy. I just have to go down fighting in the little things. I have to win even if I KNOW that I'm wrong, I can't let him be right. Its not good. I am find in the big decisions he makes for our family, but its those small little things that I just buck him constantly.
The Lord just showed me through Craig Grochel that we are to give our leaders Honor. Its one thing to give them respect, but respect is something that they have to earn where has Honor is just flat out honoring them even if they don't deserve it.
It really made me take a look at my actions/responses to Jeremy. I don't honor him. I do respect him as a person, but can I say yes I honor him...if I were being honest I'd have to say no.
So I am committed to moving into this process. I so want my husband to be the head of our house & I want to be that help meet that the Lord intended me to be for him. I want to make him better just by the way I respond to him or by the way I love him. That is my biggest desire. So I'm really leaning on the Lord to not only strip away that ugliness about me that is called Pride, but also teach me how in the small things I can Honor Jeremy.
So that was pretty huge for me.

In other news, I decided to run a 10k (which is 6miles). Its a run that is bring awareness to sex trade. The race is called Run for Their Lives. Here is a link: http://www.runfortheirlives.net/
There are two main reasons why I chose to do this race on such short notice. In all honesty the first reason is because I have been letting my "self" control me these last couple months. I have loosened the reigns on how I eat & exercise, and well its led to nothing but weight gain. As most of you know (if you don't you can read earlier posts on this part of my journey) I have committed to Honor God with ALL of me, even by what I eat & how I exercise. Lately I have just been giving into self & not caring. Its easier. Unfortunately. I would much rather sit on my couch & eat bon bons if truth be told! But this race has been a motivation to get back on track. Training for this race will help me get back in gear & be disciplined again.

The 2nd is to bring awareness to the sex trade that is happening right now.
Jeremy went to Nicaragua & he was telling me this story of a girl who was sold by her mother into prostitution because she needed money to provide for her family & selling her young daughter was the only way she knew to make money. So its for the girls (and boys) still out there who are in need of a savior & in need of being rescued. I run for you. Your body is hurt in ways I will never understand nor can even imagine & while my pain is still physical pain it is incomparable. I have never ran 6 miles & I'm not sure I even can, but as I do & my body aches each ache will be attached with a prayer & a name. My God will resucue you. I run for you.

One year ago...

I can't believe one year later all that has happened to us! It's so crazy to be leaving for Catalyst this year & remember the state of my heart last year. Also how God fulfilled my dream, He gave me a baby!
Granted it was not they way we thought it would come (by way of adoption), but rather to have my own.
If you are an interested reader, go back to October 2009 & read from there. God is incredible & I am still in shock some days at how this all came about! I find myself reading back to those days & saying...wow God, you really DID have a plan. Oh foolish me, will I ever learn?

I am excited & expectant to see what God has in store for us this year at Catalyst. Arms open wide, ready for what you will Lord!

Till next time!

My big girl

Well it's official!
Ella GIGGLED for the first time ever!! It was so awesome!!
We were at home & our best friends Luke & Steph were over, Jeremy was just playing around with Ella. He was doing what most Daddy's do which is toss & throw babies around & they love it! Ella was having a blast of course & all of a sudden she let out the cutest giggle!!! We all looked at each other & I ran over & hugged then & then jumped & twirled around!! I've been waiting to hear a giggle come out!!
It was great moment, one I wil not forget!
....now if we can just get her to do it again! We tried several times after that & there was no such luck, but I'm sure there are plenty of giggles waiting to come out!!
Two months & 3 weeks....my little girl is slowly getting to be a big girl! Loving every moment!! <3