We weren't going to buy gifts for each other, but in all his thoughtfulness, my husband Jeremy had this for me Christmas morning. Better than any gift Monet could buy. I can't even begin to state what this has done to my heart. All I know is, is that I've fallen deeper in love with my savior & have been given a true gift with the family he has given me!
If you have 10 minutes & want to watch a video of a portion of my husband & my journey watch this:
http://vimeo.com/18155894
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
A Social Network Christmas
I don't know why but this video hit me. Even made me cry! (surprise).
I don't know if its cause I just mimicked these things this summer when Ella came into the world...telling everyone posting things on facebook, or if this just brings it down to a level where I am. Either way it hit home & I'm thankful for this refreshing, new look into the birth of my Savior.
Hope you enjoy.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Rest is ok!
I love when you type out a super long blog & then something happens & you thought you had it saved, but you didn't.
Love. that.
Anyway...What I was going to say is...
I have been in a rough spot lately, just trying to figure out this new life I have. I have been trying to learn how to balance stuff. Wanting to be a good wife, a good mother, continue being a servant to the girls in the high school room, and be a good friend, while working full time & trying to keeping a house in clutter free order.
Needless to say I'm having a rough go at it.
I just have been overwhelmed this past month & when I get overwhelmed I tend to back off. Seclude myself & just try to retreat...well that just helps me sink farther into the black abyss that is my life when I try to do things on my own.
I was given a book by Nan on Sunday. It is called: Nice Girls Don't Change the World, by Lynne Hybles.
I thought, oh that is such a nice thing! I had never heard of that book before, but I thought that was so nice of her. Well like the other 2 dozen books on my book shelf that I start & don't finish...yesterday was a slow day at work, so I thought I’d pick it up & read a few pages. I did not expect to love this book.
Well. I couldn't put it down! I read the whole thing!
It spoke to me right where I’m at. It is so what I needed to hear!
Last month I got a text from a friend & she said, “I am praying Psalms 62:5-6 over you, not sure why but I am.” It says: “Find rest O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is my fortress, I will not be shaken.”
I didn’t think twice about it…was like hmmm that’s a nice verse…wonder why that’s for me? Then just went on my way.
Well it wasn’t until read this book that I realized what this verse was for. It was preparing me for the place I was going. He alone is not my rock, and Janna in herself IS shaken. I can’t do this on my own; I can’t be everything to everyone & still have ALL the house work done ALL the time. I am in a process of learning to let things go. It’s so hard for me to relax when there is chaos around me, and this is something that I think the Lord is trying to teach me….that yes, there is chaos & things do need cleaned & stuff does need to get done, but in the midst of it all… "I am your rock. I am your fortress & I will not be shaken. So hold on tight little one because it’s going to get bumpy.”
I read this expert from the book that just spoke right to my heart. This is God speaking to Lynne Hybles when she was at a time in her life when things were falling to pieces:
"I love you. Right here. Right now. I love you so much that I want you to rest. I want you to sit and receive the refreshment of my creation. I want you to listen to music. I want you to dance in the quietness of your bedroom. I want you to be like a child secure & free in the presence of an adorning parent. I want you to know that all those years you were working so hard to please me; I was trying to tell you to slow down. I saw you killing yourself from the inside out & I tried to stop you. But the many false voices in your head drown out the single true voice in your heart. I wasn't the one cracking the whip, the one telling you work harder, the one who made you feel guilty when you relaxed. I was the one who saw you, who knew you, who believed in you, who longed to restore your energy. I was the one trying to fluff up the pillow, tuck the blanket around your shoulders, and tell you it was time to rest. I was the one trying to love you."
So during these next few weeks I’m going to try to sit down, lean back, kick my feet up, and relax & enjoy Him. Even if it means the laundry & house work suffer & not feel guilty if I’m sitting down relaxing…..um…maybe. hahah :)
No, but just relearning how to do this thing & balance all that I have going on in my life all the while keeping Him the center. He alone is my fortress…I will not be shaken.
Merry Christmas Everyone! ♥
Love. that.
Anyway...What I was going to say is...
I have been in a rough spot lately, just trying to figure out this new life I have. I have been trying to learn how to balance stuff. Wanting to be a good wife, a good mother, continue being a servant to the girls in the high school room, and be a good friend, while working full time & trying to keeping a house in clutter free order.
Needless to say I'm having a rough go at it.
I just have been overwhelmed this past month & when I get overwhelmed I tend to back off. Seclude myself & just try to retreat...well that just helps me sink farther into the black abyss that is my life when I try to do things on my own.
I was given a book by Nan on Sunday. It is called: Nice Girls Don't Change the World, by Lynne Hybles.
I thought, oh that is such a nice thing! I had never heard of that book before, but I thought that was so nice of her. Well like the other 2 dozen books on my book shelf that I start & don't finish...yesterday was a slow day at work, so I thought I’d pick it up & read a few pages. I did not expect to love this book.
Well. I couldn't put it down! I read the whole thing!
It spoke to me right where I’m at. It is so what I needed to hear!
Last month I got a text from a friend & she said, “I am praying Psalms 62:5-6 over you, not sure why but I am.” It says: “Find rest O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is my fortress, I will not be shaken.”
I didn’t think twice about it…was like hmmm that’s a nice verse…wonder why that’s for me? Then just went on my way.
Well it wasn’t until read this book that I realized what this verse was for. It was preparing me for the place I was going. He alone is not my rock, and Janna in herself IS shaken. I can’t do this on my own; I can’t be everything to everyone & still have ALL the house work done ALL the time. I am in a process of learning to let things go. It’s so hard for me to relax when there is chaos around me, and this is something that I think the Lord is trying to teach me….that yes, there is chaos & things do need cleaned & stuff does need to get done, but in the midst of it all… "I am your rock. I am your fortress & I will not be shaken. So hold on tight little one because it’s going to get bumpy.”
I read this expert from the book that just spoke right to my heart. This is God speaking to Lynne Hybles when she was at a time in her life when things were falling to pieces:
"I love you. Right here. Right now. I love you so much that I want you to rest. I want you to sit and receive the refreshment of my creation. I want you to listen to music. I want you to dance in the quietness of your bedroom. I want you to be like a child secure & free in the presence of an adorning parent. I want you to know that all those years you were working so hard to please me; I was trying to tell you to slow down. I saw you killing yourself from the inside out & I tried to stop you. But the many false voices in your head drown out the single true voice in your heart. I wasn't the one cracking the whip, the one telling you work harder, the one who made you feel guilty when you relaxed. I was the one who saw you, who knew you, who believed in you, who longed to restore your energy. I was the one trying to fluff up the pillow, tuck the blanket around your shoulders, and tell you it was time to rest. I was the one trying to love you."
So during these next few weeks I’m going to try to sit down, lean back, kick my feet up, and relax & enjoy Him. Even if it means the laundry & house work suffer & not feel guilty if I’m sitting down relaxing…..um…maybe. hahah :)
No, but just relearning how to do this thing & balance all that I have going on in my life all the while keeping Him the center. He alone is my fortress…I will not be shaken.
Merry Christmas Everyone! ♥
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Months are flying by....
Can you believe in 9 days Ella Jaydan Wilkinson will be 5 months old!!? Well I can't! In this little cyber world where I mostly talk to myself...I think its shocking. :)
Some little milestones that we have hit are:
Sunday Nov. 21st we fed Ella her first bowl of rice cereal.
Today Dec. 2nd Ella rolled from tummy to back for the very first time.
My parents came out with my brother & his family for Thanksgiving for a week. I wanted my parents to experience a first with Ella so we waited to feed her food until they got here...she eats great! She has done so well with it! Its a time I look forward to everyday! Thanksgiving was a great week, we got to see my brothers family. Our niece Abigail is almost 2 & is oh so funny! She is super cute with her fire red hair! Mason our nephew is 9 months old & he is just a doll baby. Such a good boy who gives the best hugs & kisses! ♥
Then this morning Jeremy text me a video of Ella rolling! It was so cute! Every time he would put her on her tummy she would roll to her back! haha my sweet girl is just growing right along!
I still stop in my tracks & remember what the Lord did for us. He is the best gift giver. I love that he doesn't stop and settle with us either. He keeps us moving & growing till we look a little more like him everyday. He's so sweet to us. To me. ♥
Some little milestones that we have hit are:
Sunday Nov. 21st we fed Ella her first bowl of rice cereal.
Today Dec. 2nd Ella rolled from tummy to back for the very first time.
My parents came out with my brother & his family for Thanksgiving for a week. I wanted my parents to experience a first with Ella so we waited to feed her food until they got here...she eats great! She has done so well with it! Its a time I look forward to everyday! Thanksgiving was a great week, we got to see my brothers family. Our niece Abigail is almost 2 & is oh so funny! She is super cute with her fire red hair! Mason our nephew is 9 months old & he is just a doll baby. Such a good boy who gives the best hugs & kisses! ♥
Then this morning Jeremy text me a video of Ella rolling! It was so cute! Every time he would put her on her tummy she would roll to her back! haha my sweet girl is just growing right along!
I still stop in my tracks & remember what the Lord did for us. He is the best gift giver. I love that he doesn't stop and settle with us either. He keeps us moving & growing till we look a little more like him everyday. He's so sweet to us. To me. ♥
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